Dear You,
I was hoping that someday, somehow you could read this blog and maybe, just maybe, you will know it's you I'm referring to. Just some wishful thinking though.
I'm not so good in constructing words but I will try to just let my heart out. So here it goes...
I have known you for a quite a long time, you are one of my best and super-duper cool friend way back then, I supposed. Now, I'm not sure anymore. Things change. But despite that I still like you. I really do. Over the years, I have respected our friendship to the point of ignoring my more than a friend feeling. Maybe because I was always afraid losing you by my side.
I miss you.
Everyday that I see you now, I wished I could turn back time. I wished I could be with you. I miss everything about you.
But even if that won't happen anymore. I do hope I could tell you this personally, but I just can't.
Thank you for making me smile always. Thank you for treating me nice. Thank you for always being there for me. They said that you like me, that I really don't know. You said you loved me once, more than a friend, but every time you pour your heart, you were always tipsy. LOL. It has been said that a drunk man's words are a sober man's thoughts. But how will I know, you never did really say it. Maybe you have shown it in action, or just maybe said it through jokes, but I can never tell. Sorry that I'm like this, stone hearted? Not really, I just don't wanna assume things.
You might never know but you inspire me always. You have touched my heart in many ways you did not even know. I have loved you all these years to be honest. My heart skips every time you're near and I can't really hide my smile and the look in my eyes when you're with me. I'm sure you were not able to notice.
I'm one of your fan in Facebook and Twitter. Most of the time I'm online, I looked at your posts and pictures, especially moments we had together. The mere mention of your name has an impact on me. I have been dreaming about you lately. Sometimes I wished I could hug you, or just say the words I wanna say to you, but just can't. There's just this huge barrier between us as of the moment. But a part of me, would really love to let you know how special you are to me. So that when I grow old, I won't have regrets of not telling you. But anyway as for now, I won't. Just someday.....
Funny isn't it that I am this brave to write on my blog. I don't think I have followers though.
I wish you all the best.
I love you.
